Title: Mirror

Gender: Female

Age: 32

Sun Sign: Sagittarius

Chinese Sign: Wood Rabbit

Location: Woodbridge, New Jersey

I'd like to make an appointment with my Highest Self, please…

So I'm here in this beautiful place, surrounded by pages and pages of goals and aspirations of truly beautiful souls, and I've realized…

I'm afraid I'm not as Second Tier and Yellow as I thought I was.  I realize after listening to Ken's talk with Brian that I still have quite a few of Maslow's deficiency needs that haven't been met.  So one of my goals is to satiate those needs as completely yet quickly as possible, so I can feel comfortable in that overflowing state.  I can intellectually grasp SDi, AQAL, and all that jazz, but doing so doesn't mean that I actually live there.

I think that's what makes me ache the most.  I know that's where my soul wants to go.  I know that's what I want to do, and it's where I belong in the most primal sense.  But I feel like I'm looking out over a fence and I can't find the door.  I want to shake myself and yell “What are you doing at your 9 to 5 if this is what you truly believe?”

Security is nice, but at what price?

I know I have a lot to offer.  I'm here to figure out how to excavate it out of my frightened, contracted, crabby, emotionally red meme self.  Words of encouragement are welcome, as are swift kicks in the butt.

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